One More Month

Or do I say round or cycle? I spoke to the Dr this week about some blood work I had done recently. I'm still a little unsure exactly what the deal was but it came back low, really low which means I'm still not ovulating. Probably too much info but I feel like this process may need to be documented for myself. So from the beginning?

I switched birth controls in January and my cycle stopped all together. I kept calling the doctors and they said that some times your body takes a little bit to adjust. Come March still nothing which was nice and all cuz we weren't trying and weren't planning on it until at least June. I decided to quit taking birth control and hoped my body would get back on track. July rolls around and still nothing is going on, I have to admit it has been a nice break but when I actually want my cycle to be normal it disappears. Come August the medicine starts. I don't like this.

It's November now and I'm still not pregnant. I have been through two rounds of clomid and another medicine which I never remember what it is called and each month it has been increased. They are increasing it again this next week. She told me if it still doesn't work they are going to "refer me out". I didn't ask what that meant so I'm only assuming that means to a fertility center. I don't like the sound of those words, it totally bums me out and makes me nervous and unsure of what will happen and what our options will be. The thought never even entered my head that getting pregnant could be an issue.

On the plus side I have been doing more thinking, reading the scriptures and praying. I know we will have kids one way or another, it may even be the little asian baby I always wanted! I learned a little lesson learned this last week though. It hit me one day - PATIENCE. That is what I need. This is one aspect of my life that will getting a little extra love from me. I need to be more patient. There is only so much I can do for myself and as long as I am doing what I need to do for me everything will work out. In the mean time I will practice patience and wait for my babies to come.